Being from a French mother and an African father, my identity was shattered for a while and I deeply felt the precarious position of a mixed blood person.
I asked myself: “Who am I?”
In many instances, to be of mixed blood origin is to have the wrong skin colour.
Without the support of his mother or his father, Happy failed to forge a well-defined sense of identity for himself. He became like a leaf, blown around by the wind.
At the same time, Happy was well aware that whites seemed to lead a much better life than the majority of blacks. // [It was a miracle that Happy survived. His face was damaged and he had to undergo extensive plastic surgery. When he finally came out of the hospital, he asked to go back to the Sindane family. He did not want to stay in the centre anymore. In an interview in The Star newspaper two months ago, Happy confessed that his biggest wish was to build his own house and to marry a white woman. "White women respect and support their partners," he said. "I know it sounds weird for someone who grew up in the dusty township to marry a white woman, but I don’t think anyone can choose my wife for me." He also wants to train to become an electrician and to have his own business. Not afraid of contradicting himself, Happy added that he intended to go through Ndebele initiation rites so he can become "a true man" and learn to think in a more rational way.](http://thewe.cc/contents/more/archive2005/february/happy_sindane.htm “Alienated mixed race children South African White People The WE News Archives”)